Confused

Have you ever been confronted with a question that made you uncomfortable and puzzled?  Well, recently I was asked did I do something that 1) the person should know me better than that 2) if I was guilty then trust me there would have been evidence.  I’m sure you want to know what it was. My former roommate came to me one day looking distraught.  She had told me a few days prior that someone had used her credit card and made many transactions.  The credit card people had told her the charges were made on the East coast.  I felt bad for her because whoever did it was rude.  Unbeknownst to be she had asked me did I steal from her. I’m like are you serious. Why would I steal from you? First, of all I’m truly saved and I don’t go around stealing from people. Secondly, if I had stolen from her I would have made sure I had gas in my car because I was on empty, I would have paid my cell phone bill because it was off, and I would have bought me some groceries because I had none. Thirdly, I thought we were friends and the whole reason I was staying with her is because my money was stolen and I have to go to court to get it back. Why would I do the same thing that was done to me? SMH To make matter’s worse she had already assumed my guilt before asking because when I said no I wouldn’t do that she goes are you sure? I’m like yes I’m sure I would know. Then she goes well the charges were made on the East coast around the same time you went to your grandmother’s funeral.  By this time I was really offended and confused.  I couldn’t believe the words were coming out of her mouth.  After everything I been through this semester at school, having $0.68 in my bank account and not being able to do my best on my assignments because I HAD NO MONEY she honestly thinks I stole from her.  That means either she really didn’t trust me or her life is so consumed with her own issues that….well…..hmmm I don’t know exactly.  I wanted to leave that night badly but I had nowhere to go, no money, and no phone.  So, there I was stuck at her place.  Later that evening after she had done some research and figured out it wasn’t me, she asked to speak with me. I was in a situation like this previously and the person did not give me the opportunity to speak, so I was not going to be like that. We talked and both shared how we felt.  It all came down to the reality that we both have some emotional issues to work out and are in the process of being healed. We both have trust issues although hers is deeper than mine. We decided that not being friends wasn’t the solution to our problem. However, it was best that I move out. She gave me the money to get home to my family and I knew in my heart that once I got home everything would work out.  My mother encouraged me and made me feel okay about my situation.  I don’t like being homeless but I know in my heart that God has a greater plan for me.  When God makes a promise to you, He always keeps it.  I don’t know when my promise will be fulfilled I just know God promised me a home.  So while I’m homeless I’m going to keep moving forward, keep pursuing my education, and keep doing all I know how to live right. Peace & Blessings! #fromlonertoleader

Enough is Enough

Okay, so there’s been so much talk about how to live saved, who’s saved, and who isn’t living right.  It can be very confusing and frustrating because there are many people out there professing salvation and proclaiming to know the truth.  I have been so confused for many years by the teachings I received and what I actually saw.  If actions really do speak louder than words, than we as saints, Christians, and people of God are in serious trouble.  We talk a good game but under the scope of things we are living a lie.  We say one thing but do the opposite or we excuse certain people for whatever reason and only condemn those we feel aren’t living up to standard.  But who created this standard? I thought we were supposed to be following the Bible which is inspired by God written through ordinary men He chose.  The Bible gives us many accounts of people just like us trying to live right and have a relationship with God.  We see their errors and are able to learn from them and hopefully not make the same mistake.  It’s hard to live saved with some of the people who are supposed to be saved as well.  They judge a lot and they do it quickly, usually harsh and blaming.  That isn’t at all how God wants it.  Yes, He doesn’t want us to mess up, yet He knows we will that’s why He shows us people in the Bible messing up and repenting.  I am so tired of judging people including judging the people who are judging.  Look, I’m not God and I can’t put you in any Hell or Heaven.   I’m not perfectly living saved every day of my life though I try.  The important thing is that YOU #1 Develop your own personal relationship with God where you talk to Him and fellowship with Him and pray to Him on a daily basis #2 Find a church, or group you can fellowship with to learn more biblical principles and daily living tips so that you can be successful on your walk with God #3 Read the Bible and search for understanding so that you can apply the Word to your life. You can do this by going to Bible study, reading additional books that break down the scripture, going to Bible school, and talking with Bible scholars #4 Don’t take everything you hear over the pulpit and in church at face value, but do respect leaders in the church, just make sure you’re obeying God and not man #5 Enjoy life and live a balanced one. We have many responsibilities that include having a relationship with God, working to eat and live, spending time with our families, getting an education, eating healthy and exercising, serving in our community, helping to make our world a better place, and most importantly loving ALL God’s people.  Too much of anything is not a good thing. Again, I can’t tell you what to do all I know is what works for me.  I can pray for you, encourage you, give you advice based on what I know and believe which has worked for me, but ultimately IT’S YOUR RESPONSIBILITY!  Peace & Blessings #fromlonertoleader